Stefan you have been gone for a little over eight hours now. So far...so good. I came home, surfed the web for a little bit and then took a nice long two hour nap. I have a bbq chicken and bacon pizza on its way from Papa John's as we speak. I'm so sorry but I forgot to hide the letter that I wrote for you at work in your stuff. I'll type it below. I thought making a blog would make it easier for us to keep in contact in case we don't have a chance to talk everyday. It will give me a chance to update you on my day and post pictures to show you my redecorating. :p Joking....kind of. I'll send you the link through facebook. The outpouring of support from friends have been tremendous already so far. And guess what...I haven't cried yet! Unless you want me to cry? Ha ha. Right now I'm watching Supernanny, doing laundry, and doing dishes. Time to be productive. :) Here's the letter that I wrote you but never fully finished (minor changes have been made-I typed it on Jenny's letterhead to make it look like I was working while I did it. Tee hee so that won't be shown here)
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My Dearest Stefan,
You are leaving in two days from now and I can't believe it. I was naive in thinking that either this day would never come or that it would seem like a lifetime from now. However, it's finally here. I can't begin to imagine the stress that you have been under for these past two weeks. It just wasn't fair for you and you shouldn't have had to go through that. I'm also sorry for the way that I have been acting for the past two weeks. The last thing that I wanted to do was fight and nag my husband instead of trying to cherish every single moment that we have left together. But you know me, I'm stubborn. I know that a lot of people would ask for a do-over but let's face it our do-over would probably have had the same results. I'm just going to miss you so much and I was sad and angry that we weren't able to be together as much as I would have liked. I honestly felt like the crazy army wife for a while. I hope that once the plane takes off you will finally be able to breathe for the first time in a while.
As crazy as it sounds, I'm happy that you are getting away from Fort Bragg and from your unit-at least for a month. You need this time to recover from everything and if that means leaving earlier than everyone else-then so be it. I'll manage. I was really struggling with the fact that our last weekend together...well-sucked. Let's be honest here. But we also had some great times that weekend too ;) We are going to look back on that like everything else and laugh. I mean come on....I spent months worrying about that railroad crossing thing and now I can't even remember why I was so stressed. Well I can...but that's beside the point. :-p
Sometimes I think that I don't tell you enough how much I love you and appreciate everything that you do for me- from making coffee in the mornings before work or on the weekends for me and remembering to add cream in my coffee-to paying all the bills and for that I'm sorry. I appreciate your help even when I sometimes make fun of your sad attempts at cleaning (Sorry, but it's true)
Every time that I look into your eyes I can see how much you love me. The only thing that I ask is that you come back to me. I know that I have asked you to come back the same way that you left, but I know that that is an impossible task. When you asked me to stay by your side no matter what happens...you didn't even have to ask.
Alright...well-that's where I left off on the letter-but to sum it up- I love you and I already miss and I have an app on my phone counting down the days. Love you google goo
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