I hope that they actually serve coffee at the FRG coffee or it will be quite the let down. :p

This will probably be another short post because I am laying in bed and about to pass out. It was so great to hear your voice tonight babe. You can't even begin to imagine how much I miss you. I think it's harder because every where I look in the apartment there is something that reminds me of you....probably because 99% of the apartment is also your stuff. lol. I was so shocked that you called that I didn't even ask you any questions that I had for you. I will have to make a list for next time. Like I said the FRG meeting was..well an FRG meeting. Tomorrow is an FRG coffee...gulp. I'm bringing scattegories and a positive attitude. Oh crap that reminds me I need to look this place up on google maps that I'm going to. Ok sorry this is such a short post but I'm really sleepy. Work was super busy today. I didn't even stop for lunch so all I had until 8pm was a starbucks double shot can drink thing. Tidak Bagus! I had a PF Chang skillet for dinner and managed to eat most of it. Go me! I'm trying to be really good about not posting anything on facebook about how long you have been gone or any updates with you. I almost wish that I could be that girl from Ft. Lewis and broadcast every moment of my day and her husband's day lol. However, I am going to refrain. You would be proud. Love you google goo. I'm still taking it one day at a time. I don't know if I'm repressing it or not but so far I have been making it through with flying colors. I haven't even cried yet-which makes me feel kind of guilty lol. But even if I haven't cried yet there is no where I'd rather be than in your arms right now. I haven't missed the peanut butter knives yet...but give it time. Love you baby!

Cops and the RH of Atlanta-what do these things have in common?

Well it's midnight so this post won't be long. Also, I stayed in the house all day so there isn't much to tell. I woke up around 12 today...I guess I was tired. Sarah called me soon after. She told me that their were seven police officers at her house yesterday because they got a call reporting gun shots from her house. They all approached her house with guns drawn. Apparently, her brother along with some other professional gamers have been getting hacked-facebook, twitter, bank accounts, personal information, everything. They made a fake 911 call and I guess they did it to someone else. Isn't that crazy!?!? Hmm...well I didn't really do much for the rest of the day. I did some cleaning and two loads of laundry but I didn't get to the closet yet-that will have to wait for another day. I RSVPed for the frg coffee that is on Tuesday. Sigh. I'll play the game. Also they have that FRG on Monday that I'll go to but I won't be on time since I don't really want to take off of work to leave early.

The remainder of my night I had dinner and watched the new episode of the RH of Atlanta. And that's about it. I'm laying in bed right now...yes..the bed...and missing you like crazy. I wish that my head was laying on your chest and my legs were wrapped around your waist like usual. Sigh...oh by the way your dad was asking for your new email? I wasn't aware that you had a new email address? Well if you do and you read this send it to me through facebook. I think they want to start getting care packages ready for you. Alright, love you google goo. Got to get ready for bed...well...eventually. Love you so much!

Working Out and Sherbert Ice Cream...wait...is sherbert technically considered icecream?

Don't worry. I just googled it. Sherbert is not an icecream flavor its another type of frozen dessert. Anyway, I went to bed last night around midnight and woke up at 8am...to Walker Texas Ranger on the tv. It was waay too early for Chuck Norris and his rangery stuff so I switched it to something else...I don't remember anymore what it was. I spent the morning watching tv and that was about it. Hannah replied to my email about adding your mom onto the email list. She also apologized for not coming because of Zachary...whatever. She also asked if I was going to the FRG meeting on Monday. Who schedules something at 5pm? Honestly! Some of us army wives have to work for a living in order to have money to go shopping for clothes and shoes. Umm...I mean pay my student loans and save for my wedding? Anyway, I'll probably go on Monday but I hate taking off more time from work. I might just leave at 5 and get there late. We'll see. Shelly said that she would either shout my name when I came in and say" Over here! I saved you a seat!" or she would hold up a poster for me when I got there. She asked if I wanted "Get out Goray" or "Nice Legs" which is the one that she uses for Brian when he runs marathons. I think that you can safely assume that I asked for the nice legs poster.

I went back to the gym today. Gasp! I know. I took it really slow but I stayed for about two hours. Mainly elliptical and treadmill. Ok...only elliptical and treadmill. I didn't really run at all just walked at a nice leisurely but kind of fast pace. I took off four months-I need to ease back into these things! I came home showered and then had a slice and a half of pizza.

Apparently after that I took a five hour nap. I woke up to a missed text from Shelly inviting me to Elizabeth's pizza with them. But I wasn't really hungry so it's ok. I'm still kind of worried that I've had next to no appetite. I went to Food Lion around 8pm and picked up some 7-up, orange juice, water, and sherbert. Oh and aleve...I forgot about aleve. I was hoping that the sherbert might stimulate my hunger. Anyway, I called my mom to tell her that I was worried since I haven't been hungry lately. She told me that it could be all of my stress coming to a head. I haven't been feeling stressed lately but maybe my body is catching up to the last couple of weeks. I told her I hoped I wasn't pregnant. Then I said I'm just joking...I hope. Because you can never be too careful when it comes to jinxes. I might just be coming down with something or maybe I am a lot more stressed than I realized? Anyway, I came home and had some sherbert and I was able to eat everything in my bowl. Now, if only I wanted something that was actually filling and substantial. I'll try to eat more tomorrow. Maybe I'll make eggs for breakfast or an omelette. Ok well that's about it. Oh yeah...the checks came in the mail today so I'll write out the rent check and the PWC check.

I didn't do any cleaning today. Tomorrow I'll probably do a load of laundry, straighten up a little, and maybe organize our walk in closet-it's getting messy again. I was happy to hear from you google goo. I love you. Stay warm. Have you read any good books lately? Also-you would drop your laptop. At least you can't blame Jill for that one! ha ha. Love you and let me know if you need/want anything once you get settled down and established. Love you handsome!

Ok...I gave in and got McDonald's coffee again.

I woke up this morning early...like 7:30 in the morning early. As I laid on the couch (like you didn't figure that I would be sleeping on it) and listened to the rain I decided that I needed coffee...and not just any coffee but iced coffee. I hurried up and got ready and left the house by....8:06! I got to McDonald's-ordered my drink-and they didn't even screw up. It was only around 8:17 when I got out of there. I had a nice leisurely drive to work and got to work four minutes early-for the first time in well...forever. Oops. Anyway, work went really well. I got a bunch of things accomplished and the check from the VA came for one of our beneficiaries-yay! We can finally pay her bills! For once in my life I felt like I didn't screw up anything that entire day. Hopefully I didn't just jinx myself. Laura even said something that was really nice. She said hopefully Jenny can hire someone else if it gets busier because I really shouldn't be answering phones since I do so much stuff already and Jenny should be utilizing me for more stuff. I was in shock. For the past three months I felt like Laura thought that I kept screwing things up-maybe I was just imagining that and maybe I underestimated myself? Anyway-that put me in a great mood for the remainder of the day. :) I got your message today and I couldn't stop smiling. :) Our friends have been so great and Al and Shelly keep checking up on me. I'll admit that I'm a little sad that I haven't heard anything from Tricia or Vanessa but I can't expect people to stop their lives for me, now can I? lol.

I got home and did a load of laundry (which I need to take out of the dryer...oops) and unloaded/loaded the dishwasher. I had some more pizza for dinner. I got my tricare prime card today and I got my debit card for USAA yesterday. The only thing that is worrying me is that I haven't really had an appetite for the past couple of days. I'm hoping that I'm not coming down with anything but I just haven't been feeling hungry. Well that was pretty much my day-I'm just sitting on the couch right now listening to movie soundtracks on youtube-there isn't anything on tv-big surprise there- I think that I am going to go to the gym tomorrow. Maybe I'll start reading a book tonight? I talked to my mom and she said that she talked to your mom and they had a really nice conversation. I'm glad that our moms get along. I guess that I'll be a grownup and take the clothes out of the dryer. I'm trying to not overwhelm myself with too much laundry at one time. Yesterday I did two loads and tonight I only did one. Too much of something is never a good thing. Tee Hee. I love you google goo. Keep staying safe and I can't wait to hear your voice again. I'm selfish like that.

BBQ Chicken Pizza and Laundry :p

Stefan you have been gone for a little over eight hours now. So far...so good. I came home, surfed the web for a little bit and then took a nice long two hour nap. I have a bbq chicken and bacon pizza on its way from Papa John's as we speak. I'm so sorry but I forgot to hide the letter that I wrote for you at work in your stuff. I'll type it below. I thought making a blog would make it easier for us to keep in contact in case we don't have a chance to talk everyday. It will give me a chance to update you on my day and post pictures to show you my redecorating. :p Joking....kind of. I'll send you the link through facebook. The outpouring of support from friends have been tremendous already so far. And guess what...I haven't cried yet! Unless you want me to cry? Ha ha. Right now I'm watching Supernanny, doing laundry, and doing dishes. Time to be productive. :) Here's the letter that I wrote you but never fully finished (minor changes have been made-I typed it on Jenny's letterhead to make it look like I was working while I did it. Tee hee so that won't be shown here)
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My Dearest Stefan,


You are leaving in two days from now and I can't believe it. I was naive in thinking that either this day would never come or that it would seem like a lifetime from now. However, it's finally here. I can't begin to imagine the stress that you have been under for these past two weeks. It just wasn't fair for you and you shouldn't have had to go through that. I'm also sorry for the way that I have been acting for the past two weeks. The last thing that I wanted to do was fight and nag my husband instead of trying to cherish every single moment that we have left together. But you know me, I'm stubborn. I know that a lot of people would ask for a do-over but let's face it our do-over would probably have had the same results. I'm just going to miss you so much and I was sad and angry that we weren't able to be together as much as I would have liked. I honestly felt like the crazy army wife for a while. I hope that once the plane takes off you will finally be able to breathe for the first time in a while.

As crazy as it sounds, I'm happy that you are getting away from Fort Bragg and from your unit-at least for a month. You need this time to recover from everything and if that means leaving earlier than everyone else-then so be it. I'll manage. I was really struggling with the fact that our last weekend together...well-sucked. Let's be honest here. But we also had some great times that weekend too ;) We are going to look back on that like everything else and laugh. I mean come on....I spent months worrying about that railroad crossing thing and now I can't even remember why I was so stressed. Well I can...but that's beside the point. :-p

Sometimes I think that I don't tell you enough how much I love you and appreciate everything that you do for me- from making coffee in the mornings before work or on the weekends for me and remembering to add cream in my coffee-to paying all the bills and for that I'm sorry. I appreciate your help even when I sometimes make fun of your sad attempts at cleaning (Sorry, but it's true)
Every time that I look into your eyes I can see how much you love me. The only thing that I ask is that you come back to me. I know that I have asked you to come back the same way that you left, but I know that that is an impossible task. When you asked me to stay by your side no matter what happens...you didn't even have to ask.

Alright...well-that's where I left off on the letter-but to sum it up- I love you and I already miss and I have an app on my phone counting down the days. Love you google goo