Missing You

Ok...so I didn't write on Tuesday...or Wednesday. However, I have good excuses for one of those days. At least I think I do.

Tuesday I went to work and I got some amazing flowers from some guy in Afghanistan. What a sweet gesture! Then I came home and needed to figure out what to have for dinner. I put chicken in to defrost on Sunday night. Usually I'm really bad about actually using the food once I defrost it. However, when I went to the store on Saturday I had bought some marinades to liven my food up. I decided to marinate the chicken and then toss it on the grill. Oh my god Stef it was so juicy, tender, and cooked perfectly. I also watch way too many cooking shows...or at least I used to. So when I saw a can of pineapples the only thing that I could think of was grilled pineapple. It was amazing! I'm glad that I'm finally branching out and trying new things. The next step is porkchops...they scare me. lol. The season finale of teen mom was on but I zoned in and out of it and didn't really pay attention.  That was pretty much my night I had some strawberries, a sam adams cherry wheat, and called it a night.

Wednesday- I got up. Got ready. Went to work. I came to work and saw that my roses had opened up and they are absolutely beautiful! I love them! Work was pretty normal. For lunch I ate my leftover chicken. Aren't you in shock!? I actually ate all the food from a meal that I made for well...probably the first time in my life if you don't count pizza..and that was an entire package of chicken! After work I saw that I had a couple of missed calls. One was from Colin's investigator. I'm  meeting with him today after work. I really don't know that much about Colin so it will be a short interview. Then I went to drop off the boots to the Papadenics because I figured it would be easier to find their house while it was still light out  because their subdivision area has no street lights! However, I couldn't switch lanes in time, so I missed a turn, and traffic was a complete bitch-read-traffic jam, so I said F-it. I called and told them that I would go around 8 like last time. So I made dinner which mainly consisted of cheese and crackers lol. I watched some tv and then around 7:20ish left to go to their house. That's finally done. I told Amanda that if those are the wrong boots I give up and I'm not coming back to her house unless it is a social visit! lol. After I got home I cleaned up the house to make sure it looked nice for when the investigator comes today. By the way...I really need to get rid of all those bottles in the kitchen because my husband still thinks that he is in college. Sigh. Well that was my night. I watched some Wife Swap gotta love reruns and had some chips and salsa. Then went to bed.

Love you!

Crap...I have a ton of days to catch up on!!! I'll try to see if I can remember anything at all...

Ok...Wednesday. I went to work as usual. After work I went to the mall to meet up with Shelly and Logan to go to Jason's Deli. She overslept a little so it gave me time to go shopping. Oops. I bought a really cute dress for 29.00 and a sweater for 5.00. I'd like to see you do better. I also got a couple of votive candles from Yankee Candle. Around 6:30 I met up with them and had dinner. It was nice. We spent most of the time gossiping about the unit...oops. I promise that nothing that I hear goes any farther than that. lol. After that I went home, watched some tv, and called it a night.

Thursday. Work as usual. I think we spoke on facebook during the day. If I didn't make coffee I'm sure that I picked up a caffeine drink. I went home and made myself a southwestern chicken burrito. It was pretty awesome....however, Chipotle still has something on me. Mmm. Chipotle...now I'm craving it. I definitely watched the unit that night and I probably did some laundry but I can't really remember off the top of my head. This is probably why I should actually write on a daily basis like I said I would...

Friday. Got up and got dressed. It was jeans day at work since it's Friday. I actually made coffee on Friday so I'm thinking that I didn't on Thursday. I got out of work at 2:30. I stopped at rite aid to pick up a couple of things. Then I went home took a nice warm shower-it was freezing out that day-and then sat and watched court tv shows in my robe. Around 5:30 Shelly texted me saying that I had to join her, Brian, and Logan at Red Robin and that it wasn't a request. So I went and had a nice time. It's really nice how they are looking out for me and inviting me to things which they definitely do not have to do.

Saturday. Slept in until noon. Lazed around the house all day. Went to Food Lion and picked up some things. I really need to start utilizing the Commissary since its soooo much cheaper. I think it scares me for some reason though lol. Time to put on my big girl pants and shop with all the army people. I didn't do anything on Saturday and to be honest I can't remember what I had for dinner....weird.

Sunday same as Saturday. Slept in until 1. Wasted the rest of the day by relaxing and doing some laundry. I think I had pizza that night because I brought pizza to work on Monday. I think I watched an episode of the Real Housewives.

Monday. Work-dropped off the stuff at the Papadenics. Made spinach ravioli for dinner. (store bought of course) Came home-watched tv until 11 and then called it a night.
 I promise to write a new post for Tuesday tonight-it was a good day :) Time to make dinner!

Teen Mom is on Tonight!

Ok, yes, I skipped Monday. However in my defense we spoke on facebook. You really didn't miss anything yesterday. Got up-grabbed an energy drink-went to work-worked. Came home made dinner (pasta) in case you don't stalk my facebook. Did two loads of laundry. Straightened up a little-talked to you on facebook. That pretty much covers it. Today-Woke up-got an energy drink (why don't I just buy more than one at a time?) went to work-had lunch (I know...I was in shock too since I usually skip it) I came home and I have pizza getting ready to go in the oven. Tonight I think I'll try to do another load of laundry. That's about it. I'm getting dinner with my favorite army wife tomorrow. Just trying to keep taking everything one day at a time.

GIANTS WIN THE SUPERBOWL!

GIANTS WIN THE SUPERBOWL!.....too bad I stopped watching at the end of the third quarter lol. Oops. Hmm...I have two days of catch up again, don't I? Well I'm not counting the morning up until 2ish since we spoke on facebook. Let's see...I really didn't do much of well...anything. I cleaned the living room, kitchen, and did a load of laundry. For dinner I contemplated getting Jimmy Johns but I wasn't really up for putting on clothes besides the pajamas that I already had on. I settled for Ramen....how pathetic was that? I had pizza and skillet meals that I could have had but I had ramen instead. Depressing I tell you. I watched the Patriot last night and didn't even cry once...I think there is something wrong with me since that movie always made me cry. I finished the night off with some episodes of the unit. Sunday-I woke up around noon-I need to stop staying up so late. Shelly asked if
I wanted to go to BWW's with them but I had just gotten up and would have needed time to get ready. Instead, we are having a dinner date on Wednesday after work. Colin and Loren invited me over for the Superbowl...originally they were going to have a couple more people but no one else could make it since the idea was last minute. I still went and had a nice time. We had Elizabeth's pizza and Colin made gigantic cookies....and I mean Gigantic! Anyway...I stayed until about nine and then I was getting sleepy so I called it a night. Loren offered to help us with our taxes but sometimes I think things are best left to professionals. Do you have any opinion on that? Let me know if you read this. Oh yeah...I went to Harris Teeter and stocked up on Home Runn Inn pizza-3 pizzas is an appropriate amount in the freezer right? Oops I mean four if you count the Digornio one....I think I have a pizza problem.

I miss you google goo-so much every night and every day. It's so hard to come home to an empty apartment and know that it is going to be like that for several more months. At least I've gotten through the first milestone: hari sepulah . Oh by the way...our recently married neighbors found a house near Ramsey street so they are moving out. :( :( Alright...well love you and keep staying safe for me. Oh...your dad put our wedding announcement in the paper it looks very nice.

I may or may not have watched four episodes of the Unit starting at 11pm..oops.

Hmm...Well I have noticed that I have started to get lazy with updating this blog. Probably because I remember at night and by then my brain is too tired to think of anything clever to say. However, in my defense I had a busy evening. Let us see...yesterday...I woke up early and got my McDonald's coffee. I have been getting far too lazy in the mornings. Work was mundane but this week has definitely flown by. For lunch I had the rest of my spinach and goat cheese pizza that I had for dinner. (Frozen pizza of course). After work, I went to Target and picked up a new scale because the anticipation of knowing what I weigh was killing me.


It's silver and stainless steel digital scale. I like it. Ironically, it is by the same company that our other scale was from...but that is all that I could find for some reason. Weird. This new one works much better. Instead of just showing your weight when you step on calculates it by increasing the numbers until it stops at your weight. Which...is somewhat depressing? I also bought teal hand towels for our bathroom and dark green ones for the second bathroom. It is an upgrade from paper towels. Next step is actually getting a garbage can for the second bathroom...but baby steps.

After I got home from Target I was on the phone with Al for over an hour and a half to be interviewed for her Master's Thesis. We also had a nice chat. I'll be interested to read her thesis once it's done. After getting off the phone I finally made dinner at 9 pm. I had some spaghetti. Around 11 I decided to call it a night. I took a shower (very exciting) and then I thought that I would watch an episode of the Unit but I guess that I wasn't tired. I stayed up until three am. Oops. This morning obviously I was a rockstar and woke up at 8:04 threw on some clothes, ran to Rite Aid and grabbed a Starbucks Vanilla doubleshot and made it to work at 8:31 a.m. What can I say, sometimes I even amaze myself. I don’t have any plans for tonight but I have laundry to do and I need to unload the dishwasher and straighten up a little. I’ve been kind of slacking this week. I’ve been so tired and haven’t had that much drive to get things done. However, I get out of work at 2 today so I will make up for that then. I also need to pay rent today and I don’t think my registration for the care team training went through so I need to call after work and find out if I can still sign up or not. Ok well that’s all that I can think of. I’m been trying to stay in touch with your dad and give him updates. I shared your last fb message with him because it was easier than trying to explain stuff lol. Alright, well that’s it for now. Time to get back to work. Oops.

Time to Play Catch Up....

So...I definitely passed out last night before writing. I'll try to recap my day  from yesterday. Got up and made coffee. Went to work. Worked. I don't think that there was anything really eventful about work yesterday. At least not from what I can remember. After work I went to the officer's wive's coffee thing. I was actually really glad that I went. Everyone was really friendly and it wasn't stiff or forced. I'll definitely go again- lol I felt like I was in a sorority though when I got the unit pin. If you don't wear the pin at the coffees then you have to pay a dollar. Dues are also twenty dollars. Yep-sorority. It's kind of like how you buy your own plaque-when I leave the unit with you then I get to choose between a unit apron or a glass cookie car with the unit crest. (You've come a long way baby! LMAO) We didn't end up playing any games which I figured would happen. ha ha. It was really sweet though because the Chaplain's wife is the one that hosted the event. She has friends who sent us, the wives care packages, since they felt like the wives are forgotten about when it comes to deployments. So everyone got lotions, bath salts, bubble bath, and a couple of other things. It was really...you just called and interrupted my thought process. :p Anyway, it was really nice. I'm too happy from your call to write more now..but stay safe and I love you and miss you and stay safe and I promise not to sew anything!

I hope that they actually serve coffee at the FRG coffee or it will be quite the let down. :p

This will probably be another short post because I am laying in bed and about to pass out. It was so great to hear your voice tonight babe. You can't even begin to imagine how much I miss you. I think it's harder because every where I look in the apartment there is something that reminds me of you....probably because 99% of the apartment is also your stuff. lol. I was so shocked that you called that I didn't even ask you any questions that I had for you. I will have to make a list for next time. Like I said the FRG meeting was..well an FRG meeting. Tomorrow is an FRG coffee...gulp. I'm bringing scattegories and a positive attitude. Oh crap that reminds me I need to look this place up on google maps that I'm going to. Ok sorry this is such a short post but I'm really sleepy. Work was super busy today. I didn't even stop for lunch so all I had until 8pm was a starbucks double shot can drink thing. Tidak Bagus! I had a PF Chang skillet for dinner and managed to eat most of it. Go me! I'm trying to be really good about not posting anything on facebook about how long you have been gone or any updates with you. I almost wish that I could be that girl from Ft. Lewis and broadcast every moment of my day and her husband's day lol. However, I am going to refrain. You would be proud. Love you google goo. I'm still taking it one day at a time. I don't know if I'm repressing it or not but so far I have been making it through with flying colors. I haven't even cried yet-which makes me feel kind of guilty lol. But even if I haven't cried yet there is no where I'd rather be than in your arms right now. I haven't missed the peanut butter knives yet...but give it time. Love you baby!

Cops and the RH of Atlanta-what do these things have in common?

Well it's midnight so this post won't be long. Also, I stayed in the house all day so there isn't much to tell. I woke up around 12 today...I guess I was tired. Sarah called me soon after. She told me that their were seven police officers at her house yesterday because they got a call reporting gun shots from her house. They all approached her house with guns drawn. Apparently, her brother along with some other professional gamers have been getting hacked-facebook, twitter, bank accounts, personal information, everything. They made a fake 911 call and I guess they did it to someone else. Isn't that crazy!?!? Hmm...well I didn't really do much for the rest of the day. I did some cleaning and two loads of laundry but I didn't get to the closet yet-that will have to wait for another day. I RSVPed for the frg coffee that is on Tuesday. Sigh. I'll play the game. Also they have that FRG on Monday that I'll go to but I won't be on time since I don't really want to take off of work to leave early.

The remainder of my night I had dinner and watched the new episode of the RH of Atlanta. And that's about it. I'm laying in bed right now...yes..the bed...and missing you like crazy. I wish that my head was laying on your chest and my legs were wrapped around your waist like usual. Sigh...oh by the way your dad was asking for your new email? I wasn't aware that you had a new email address? Well if you do and you read this send it to me through facebook. I think they want to start getting care packages ready for you. Alright, love you google goo. Got to get ready for bed...well...eventually. Love you so much!

Working Out and Sherbert Ice Cream...wait...is sherbert technically considered icecream?

Don't worry. I just googled it. Sherbert is not an icecream flavor its another type of frozen dessert. Anyway, I went to bed last night around midnight and woke up at 8am...to Walker Texas Ranger on the tv. It was waay too early for Chuck Norris and his rangery stuff so I switched it to something else...I don't remember anymore what it was. I spent the morning watching tv and that was about it. Hannah replied to my email about adding your mom onto the email list. She also apologized for not coming because of Zachary...whatever. She also asked if I was going to the FRG meeting on Monday. Who schedules something at 5pm? Honestly! Some of us army wives have to work for a living in order to have money to go shopping for clothes and shoes. Umm...I mean pay my student loans and save for my wedding? Anyway, I'll probably go on Monday but I hate taking off more time from work. I might just leave at 5 and get there late. We'll see. Shelly said that she would either shout my name when I came in and say" Over here! I saved you a seat!" or she would hold up a poster for me when I got there. She asked if I wanted "Get out Goray" or "Nice Legs" which is the one that she uses for Brian when he runs marathons. I think that you can safely assume that I asked for the nice legs poster.

I went back to the gym today. Gasp! I know. I took it really slow but I stayed for about two hours. Mainly elliptical and treadmill. Ok...only elliptical and treadmill. I didn't really run at all just walked at a nice leisurely but kind of fast pace. I took off four months-I need to ease back into these things! I came home showered and then had a slice and a half of pizza.

Apparently after that I took a five hour nap. I woke up to a missed text from Shelly inviting me to Elizabeth's pizza with them. But I wasn't really hungry so it's ok. I'm still kind of worried that I've had next to no appetite. I went to Food Lion around 8pm and picked up some 7-up, orange juice, water, and sherbert. Oh and aleve...I forgot about aleve. I was hoping that the sherbert might stimulate my hunger. Anyway, I called my mom to tell her that I was worried since I haven't been hungry lately. She told me that it could be all of my stress coming to a head. I haven't been feeling stressed lately but maybe my body is catching up to the last couple of weeks. I told her I hoped I wasn't pregnant. Then I said I'm just joking...I hope. Because you can never be too careful when it comes to jinxes. I might just be coming down with something or maybe I am a lot more stressed than I realized? Anyway, I came home and had some sherbert and I was able to eat everything in my bowl. Now, if only I wanted something that was actually filling and substantial. I'll try to eat more tomorrow. Maybe I'll make eggs for breakfast or an omelette. Ok well that's about it. Oh yeah...the checks came in the mail today so I'll write out the rent check and the PWC check.

I didn't do any cleaning today. Tomorrow I'll probably do a load of laundry, straighten up a little, and maybe organize our walk in closet-it's getting messy again. I was happy to hear from you google goo. I love you. Stay warm. Have you read any good books lately? Also-you would drop your laptop. At least you can't blame Jill for that one! ha ha. Love you and let me know if you need/want anything once you get settled down and established. Love you handsome!

Ok...I gave in and got McDonald's coffee again.

I woke up this morning early...like 7:30 in the morning early. As I laid on the couch (like you didn't figure that I would be sleeping on it) and listened to the rain I decided that I needed coffee...and not just any coffee but iced coffee. I hurried up and got ready and left the house by....8:06! I got to McDonald's-ordered my drink-and they didn't even screw up. It was only around 8:17 when I got out of there. I had a nice leisurely drive to work and got to work four minutes early-for the first time in well...forever. Oops. Anyway, work went really well. I got a bunch of things accomplished and the check from the VA came for one of our beneficiaries-yay! We can finally pay her bills! For once in my life I felt like I didn't screw up anything that entire day. Hopefully I didn't just jinx myself. Laura even said something that was really nice. She said hopefully Jenny can hire someone else if it gets busier because I really shouldn't be answering phones since I do so much stuff already and Jenny should be utilizing me for more stuff. I was in shock. For the past three months I felt like Laura thought that I kept screwing things up-maybe I was just imagining that and maybe I underestimated myself? Anyway-that put me in a great mood for the remainder of the day. :) I got your message today and I couldn't stop smiling. :) Our friends have been so great and Al and Shelly keep checking up on me. I'll admit that I'm a little sad that I haven't heard anything from Tricia or Vanessa but I can't expect people to stop their lives for me, now can I? lol.

I got home and did a load of laundry (which I need to take out of the dryer...oops) and unloaded/loaded the dishwasher. I had some more pizza for dinner. I got my tricare prime card today and I got my debit card for USAA yesterday. The only thing that is worrying me is that I haven't really had an appetite for the past couple of days. I'm hoping that I'm not coming down with anything but I just haven't been feeling hungry. Well that was pretty much my day-I'm just sitting on the couch right now listening to movie soundtracks on youtube-there isn't anything on tv-big surprise there- I think that I am going to go to the gym tomorrow. Maybe I'll start reading a book tonight? I talked to my mom and she said that she talked to your mom and they had a really nice conversation. I'm glad that our moms get along. I guess that I'll be a grownup and take the clothes out of the dryer. I'm trying to not overwhelm myself with too much laundry at one time. Yesterday I did two loads and tonight I only did one. Too much of something is never a good thing. Tee Hee. I love you google goo. Keep staying safe and I can't wait to hear your voice again. I'm selfish like that.

BBQ Chicken Pizza and Laundry :p

Stefan you have been gone for a little over eight hours now. So far...so good. I came home, surfed the web for a little bit and then took a nice long two hour nap. I have a bbq chicken and bacon pizza on its way from Papa John's as we speak. I'm so sorry but I forgot to hide the letter that I wrote for you at work in your stuff. I'll type it below. I thought making a blog would make it easier for us to keep in contact in case we don't have a chance to talk everyday. It will give me a chance to update you on my day and post pictures to show you my redecorating. :p Joking....kind of. I'll send you the link through facebook. The outpouring of support from friends have been tremendous already so far. And guess what...I haven't cried yet! Unless you want me to cry? Ha ha. Right now I'm watching Supernanny, doing laundry, and doing dishes. Time to be productive. :) Here's the letter that I wrote you but never fully finished (minor changes have been made-I typed it on Jenny's letterhead to make it look like I was working while I did it. Tee hee so that won't be shown here)
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My Dearest Stefan,


You are leaving in two days from now and I can't believe it. I was naive in thinking that either this day would never come or that it would seem like a lifetime from now. However, it's finally here. I can't begin to imagine the stress that you have been under for these past two weeks. It just wasn't fair for you and you shouldn't have had to go through that. I'm also sorry for the way that I have been acting for the past two weeks. The last thing that I wanted to do was fight and nag my husband instead of trying to cherish every single moment that we have left together. But you know me, I'm stubborn. I know that a lot of people would ask for a do-over but let's face it our do-over would probably have had the same results. I'm just going to miss you so much and I was sad and angry that we weren't able to be together as much as I would have liked. I honestly felt like the crazy army wife for a while. I hope that once the plane takes off you will finally be able to breathe for the first time in a while.

As crazy as it sounds, I'm happy that you are getting away from Fort Bragg and from your unit-at least for a month. You need this time to recover from everything and if that means leaving earlier than everyone else-then so be it. I'll manage. I was really struggling with the fact that our last weekend together...well-sucked. Let's be honest here. But we also had some great times that weekend too ;) We are going to look back on that like everything else and laugh. I mean come on....I spent months worrying about that railroad crossing thing and now I can't even remember why I was so stressed. Well I can...but that's beside the point. :-p

Sometimes I think that I don't tell you enough how much I love you and appreciate everything that you do for me- from making coffee in the mornings before work or on the weekends for me and remembering to add cream in my coffee-to paying all the bills and for that I'm sorry. I appreciate your help even when I sometimes make fun of your sad attempts at cleaning (Sorry, but it's true)
Every time that I look into your eyes I can see how much you love me. The only thing that I ask is that you come back to me. I know that I have asked you to come back the same way that you left, but I know that that is an impossible task. When you asked me to stay by your side no matter what happens...you didn't even have to ask.

Alright...well-that's where I left off on the letter-but to sum it up- I love you and I already miss and I have an app on my phone counting down the days. Love you google goo